I'd like someplace interesting to run that's safe, and people to run with. Oh, to have running trails to choose from. I enjoyed the coolness of early autumn. No oppressive heat, a crispness in the air, and the freshness of rain hanging about. I honestly hoped that it would rain on me. Not a downpour, but the light rain that just makes the air sparkle. I wanna sparkle.
Well, in any case, I ran my first mile in under 13 minutes (an improvement for me!) and that included my warmup, walking the monster hill, and a few walks to catch my breath. I'm still gasping and wheezing when I get out of breath, and loud as a tornado with my breathing. I guess I just have to accept that I'm going to be loud.
On the other hand, my pace improved. :). Must be my new bionic hip. And not listening to music. Actually, the 8 days I took off from running I was allowing my latest cortisone shot to work without new inflammation to deal with. I still don't understand how a shot in a bursa down there on my lower hip can help the pain at the top of my hip, but I suppose it might be an illiotibial band issue.
I think today I started getting close to the point where I can just abandon myself to enjoying the run. That's what I want more than anything -- to enjoy running. To not be tethered down by my weight, my shin splints, the heat, my lack of stamina. To just RUN and enjoy it. For a few minutes, I realized that my mind was wandering, thinking about something other than my breathing discomfort, and I went a fair distance just enjoying myself. :). I loved it. I was just a thought floating away.
No sign of endorphins though. I suspect that I won't hear from them until I can regularly push beyond five miles. When three miles becomes a breeze, and I'm working on it, five miles shouldn't be a problem.
Today I only ran two miles, then I took another quarter turn around the path for a cool down. I didn't want to overdo it my first time back running. So far, I feel okay, physically. Emotionally, I feel a little lifted from the Slough of Despond where I was languishing for well over a week. Maybe that's why I don't feel a rush -- my endorphins are doing all they can to pull me from the depths of depression and there's nothing left for the runner's high.
If it's going to improve my mood, I really need to run before work each day. A mood boost would definitely help.