Sunday, December 27, 2015

The Sleeping Dead


I feel fortunate that I got plenty of sleep last night, but you know, it was filled with dreams, meaning that I wasn't truly resting.  The main dream was being in the beginning of a zombie apocalypse (LOL! SO utterly predictable and unoriginal at this point) and trying to gather up supplies. 

Somehow Rick Grimes was there and he made me drive his police cruiser through Atlanta while people were just at the beginning fringes of panic.  He told me that I was in a police car, so quit stopping at the red lights and just drive on through. Hit the siren.  Hahah.  (I suppose I was wasting time when there wasn't much traffic in the roads to speak of anyway.). 

No, I don't have a thing for Andrew Lincoln (much cuter in Love, Actually), so I think my mind was being a tad lazy in comforting me with a familiar character in a really familiar theme.

The main thing I was worried about was getting to my house for my bag of equipment, most especially the multi-tool that I couldn't find in the bag a couple of days ago when we were opening Christmas gifts.  

What causes all this worried dreaming about being prepared for a catastrophe ? The fact that our holiday weather has been filled with disastrous weather?  Right now outside looks like a blizzard is moving in, though the temperature says otherwise.  It's gloomy.  Grey.  Depressing.  




Saturday, December 26, 2015

Christmas Decorations

This year I did a little decorating for Christmas on December 22nd. :D. Well, at least I did it. I was finally feeling a little bit inspired.  We drove around a few times looking at holiday light displays and I lost my will to put up icicle lights, even though I had bought an entire new set.

The day we attempted to put them up a few things went badly.  First, I had to maneuver myself around the power lines leading to my house, and that made me nervous.  Dreadfully nervous indeed. By the time I got around to the gable on my house, I realized that the ladder was far too short to get halfway up that roofline.  Well, I'd thought it was longer but I was mistaken.  Several days later my brother loaned me a much longer ladder, but I didn't want to bother with those lights on the house anymore. Ever again.  

And then my neighbors, the Griswolds, put up their lights and I was a bit jealous coming home to my dark house.  *Sigh*. I just wanted some holiday cheer, you know? Hardly anyone in my neighborhood made an effort this year, but they did and I wanted to.  It's what makes me enjoy Christmas -- the beautiful lights.  

We went on a two city hunt for this year's newest holiday lighting gotta-have -- the laser light shower projector.  It makes your house look like it was wrapped in red and green lights.  But after Halloween, those were nowhere to be found.  I was wanting the ability to choose different colors, anyway.  :( 

My sister and I had decided we would get together and make tomato cage Christmas trees.  I excitedly bought wired garland and some lights and then never did it. :(. But on December 22nd, we were under a tornado watch from the unnaturally warm weather and something possessed me to create something I hoped would look pretty, rather than homemade.  I had to buy a lot of extra garland (no more wired was available) and another set of lights just in case.  I already had the tomato cages from a failed summer attempt to grow tomatoes in pickle buckets. 

Okay, the whole summer even the tomatoes in the ground did poorly.  They went in too late and grew more greenery than fruit, until it was too late in the year to get decent tomatoes from them.  Next year I'll just plant the darn things at the beginning of May and risk them being frozen or flooded.

I finished the "trees", put them on my front porch, hooked them up to an extension cord and timer stake, and they look so much classier at night than I expected them to.  :). It made me so happy that I went inside and decorated my two small interior Christmas trees with ornaments. I'm sorry that I didn't get the big tree up, but that was dependent on getting rid of an old chair that was in the way.  

I think that the tomato cages will remain Christmas trees, and I'll probably just put them away as is for next year. Now what I have to do is find a tall box for each little Christmas tree and gently set them in, fully decorated. :D. Maybe if I just tackle one or two new things each year it'll look nice without one gargantuan effort?

I would like to paint a Heat Miser and a Snow Miser to go out front. Maybe if I start on them now they'll be ready. 

It would have been nice to hang up my sparkle balls in the tree, but the lights inside may be kaput by now. However, that doesn't mean I can't wrap a new set of lights around the outside, and I may do that. I also have a couple of old lighted topiaries that need some TLC -- more lights and more garland.

The problem is that being a teacher, I am utterly exhausted and just trying to survive in the weeks leading up to Christmas break.  There's not any time to rest before putting up decorations. This time I had nearly a full week before Christmas, BUT I was suddenly beset by a lot of pain and fatigue that really made my chiropractic adjustment in my lower back, shall we say, excruciating.  You know, pain the week before, agony the week of, and pain the week after.  In another week I should get to enjoy my one pain free week of the month.  It's funny to think that I'd not be in such misery if I'd had children.  I've got one heck of an exam to dread very soon.  Right now I'm flopped on the couch, knowing I shouldn't be this tired and I shouldn't be feeling any pain at all, but I am...

And I'll get on with my day regardless, because I tend to hide most of my suffering from view. After all, I'm really the only person who knows how bad it is.  







Sunday, December 13, 2015

Chiropractic and... Narcolepsy!

I've been unofficially diagnosed with narcolepsy.  Dreaming vividly within five minutes of a nap in the car was what gave it away, but the constant fatigue and daytime sleepiness are symptoms too.  I wake up just as tired as when I go to bed.  It might explain why I don't lose weight easily, as well.  I dread being told I have to take meds for it, especially since those meds are sometimes amphetamines - scary stuff. I don't like taking drugs. 

My dear fiancĂ© (DF) made an appointment for me with his chiropractor, who took a bunch of X-rays and found that my spine curves to the left near my tailbone, and does a sharp angle forward and out of place just below my skull.  Weeeeellllll...... How about that? And why didn't the neurologist notice any of that in the images he took?  

My X-rays look freaky, but there's no denying that's my skull.  There is even a metal clip marking where the tumor was removed, and my dental work is very familiar to me.

Sounds to me like he found the cause of my continuing headaches (different from the migraines, of course).  I don't know how to hold my head and it might be a result of whiplash when I was 15.  For that, I get put in a neck stretching machine.  (It's pretty uncomfortable, especially when it grips the base of my skull, and it's about as emotionally comforting for me as getting into an MRI tube.  Not being able to move my head freaks me right out.)

The lower back displacement is possibly due to my tailbone injury, and it might be the reason my leg has nerve problems, because there is a compressed disk down where it curves.  Irritating nerve roots, unhappy muscles, bad signals being sent -- this might also explain my ever-increasing clumsiness.  

My shoulder, thankfully, is a case of rotator cuff tendinitis, not a torn rotator cuff.  Unfortunately, this knocks me out of weightlifting for a while and might keep me from having toned arms in my wedding dress.  :(. 

My ankles are definitely recovering from bad sprains, though I'm told they weren't broken.  The left was badly sprained, and the adjustments he does on my ankles are excruciating... But only for a couple of seconds.  

So,... The chiropractor is doing all sorts of work on me, including trying to release my frozen lower back. He's treating my plantar fasciitis too. I'm getting crackled all over, ultrasound on my feet, and electric shocks on my shoulder and left ankle.  

I've also got arthritis in my spine, which doesn't scare me as much as I thought at this point.  I suspected as much for a long time. 

While sometimes all that popping is a bit painful for a split second, I have to admit I immediately feel better the minute I stand up -- especially in my lower back.  It seems to be getting looser each time. I have a dream that at some point that nerve is going to become unblocked and my leg will feel normal again.  :). I also dream that someday I'll run again, but my ankles will call that particular tune.  

Wedding Bells

I'm getting married in the near future.  Wow.  It was expected....eventually, but more unexpected was the proposal.  :). Imagine, having your fella stolen away 20+ years ago, but he comes back.  I should call him Odysseus.  I'm a little dumbfounded, going about making plans and arrangements, and getting used to having someone in my life.

This old maid really thought she never had a reason to think about such things as a date, a venue, a dress, cake, attendants, invitations, a guest list, and all that.  So I am completely unarmed!  Hello.... Pinterest?  My old pal?  Are you gonna help me through this?  

First things first - I presumed a date and a venue would have to be chosen first, as a lot of engagements happen at Christmas and venues would be reserved quickly by the first of the year.  It looks like the place I was most interested in will be available, but I'm pretty sure we got very lucky on that.  :)  

Now I can take everything else a step at a time. I most likely will not be creating a handmade lace dress.  I could, but I think time is too much a factor and my garment shaping skills are not good enough for that.  It's not like I will have a daughter to consider giving it to, anyway.  I'll add my personal touch to the dress, and probably make my own veil and other accessories.  

I'll have a lot of stuff to make by then.  I cringe at the thought of buying some of the items when I can make something much more beautiful by hand. 

So much to do, even considering this will not be a grandly expensive affair.  I don't do such things, and I think spending tens of thousands of dollars on a wedding is a waste.  Besides, being an older bride is a consideration.   Too many people think a lovely wedding is a waste for someone so old.  They think all the celebration should be for those girls who want that ridiculously fancy wedding more than wanting that man to be their husband for the next 80 years.