Well, if you don't like it, you don't have to read it. :) Very few people do. If you can equate that to the number of people that have any interest in me or what I have to say, oh boy, I am in trouble and I should speed up my departure date.
I write in place of real conversation -- there aren't many people I can just talk to when I need to. There's maybe one, and not even family at that. But even that one has their own concerns and I can't ask them to drop everything if I need to talk.
So I write about what's on my mind, and I try not to complain, though I often do. Seen from my perspective, you'd understand that venting is necessary to prevent an explosion. There aren't many sunny points to my life, and people who think they know me don't get that I'm hiding a lot.
Please understand that I am not going to write in order to make readers feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I'm going to write to find clarity for myself. I often write when I'm sad and sometimes something not-so-sad I'm writing reminds me of something sad that happened once upon a time.
It would be tough to diagnose me as a manic-depressive because the super-happy and energetic times don't happen very often. LOL I'm not much of a cheerleader!
If it'll make you feel better, I'll apologize now. I'm sorry. :)